I know not who I am!
I know not whence I came!
I know not where I go;
I seek — but what I do not know!
I am blind and bound; but I
Have heard one cry
Ring through Eternity:
Arise and follow me!
Assume the Sign of Typhon and invoke:
Asar Un-nefer!
I invoke the Fourfold Horror of the Smoke.
Unloose the Pit! by the dread Word
That Seth Typhon hath heard.
ZAZAS NASATANADA ZAZAS ZAZAS[2]
(A later typescript has: "Sazaz Sazaz Andatsan Sazaz. Pronounce this backwards. But it is very dangerous. It opens the Gates of Hell.")
A Pause. Then resume a normal stance.
The Fear of Darkness & of Death
The Fear of Water & of Fire
The Fear o'th'Chasm & the Chain
The Fear of Hell & the Dead Breath,
The Fear of Him, the Demon dire
That stands on the Threshold of the Inane
Stands with his Dragon Fear to slay
The Pilgrims of the Way:
These I pass by with force & care,
Advance with fortitude & wit
In the straight Path; or else their snare
Were surely infinite.
Stagger and fall back to earth.[4] Suit action to words, using chain, scourge and dagger.
Asar! who clutches at my throat?
Who pins me down? Who stabs my heart?
I am unfit to pass within
This Pylon of the Hall of Maat.
The Lustral Water! Let thy flood
Cleanse me — lymph marrow and blood!
The Scourge, the Dagger & the Chain
Purge body, breast & brain!
The Fire Informing! Let the Oil
Balance, assain, assoil.
I am Mentu the truth-telling brother
Who was master of Thebes from his birth:
O heart of me, heart of my mother!
O heart that I had upon earth!
Stand thou not thou up against me a witness!
Oppose me not, judge, in my quest!
Accuse me not now of unfitness
Before the great God, the dread Lord of the West!
Speak fair words for OU ME![7] May he flourish
In the place of the weighing of hearts
By the marsh of the dead, where the crocodiles nourish
Their lives on the lost! where the Serpent upstarts —
For though I be joined to the Earth
In the innermost shrine of the Heaven am I.
I was Master of Thebes from my birth;
As a dog shall I die? Thou shalt not let me die!
But my khu that the teeth of the crocodile sever
Shall be mighty in heaven for ever and ever!
Yea! but I am a fool & a flutterer.
I am under the Shadow of the Wings.[8]
I am a liar & a sorcerer.
I am so fickle that I scorn the bridle.
I am unchaste & voluptuous & idle.
I am a bully & a tyrant crass —
I am as dense & stubborn as an ass —
I am untrusty, cruel & insane —
I am a fool & frivolous & vain —
I am a weakling & a coward; I cringe —
I am a catamite & cunnilinge —
I am a glutton, a besotted wight;
I am a satyr & a sodomite —
I am as changeful & selfish as the sea —
I am a thing of vice & vanity —
I am most violent & I vaccilate —
I am a blind man & emasculate —
I am a raging fire of wrath — no wiser! —
I am a blackguard spendthrift & a miser! —
I am obscene & devious & null;
I am ungenerous & base & dull —
I am not marked with the white Flame of Breath!
I am a traitor — die the traitor's death!
(He is slain by the sword at "death".)
Rise erect. Begin the invoking spiral dance — to the left.
Now let me pace the Path, bind on
The girdle of the Starry One!
(Come to the barred Pylon in the North West. Again, suit actions to words.)
Asar! who clutches at my throat?
Who pins me down? Who stabs my heart?
I am unfit to pass within
This Pylon of the Hall of Maat.
The Lustral Water! Let thy flood
Cleanse me — lymph marrow and blood!
The Scourge, the Dagger & the Chain
Purge body, breast & brain!
The Fire Informing! Let the Oil
Balance, assain, assoil.
(Bar in North. Address Horus.)
Soul-mastering Terror is thy Name
Lord of the Gods! Dread Lord of Hell!
I come. I fear Thee not. Thy flame
Is mine to weave my maiden spell!
I know Thee and I pass Thee by
For more than Thou am I.
(Bar in S.E. Suit actions to words.)
Asar! who clutches at my throat?
Who pins me down? Who stabs my heart?
I am unfit to pass within
This Pylon of the Hall of Maat.
The Lustral Water! Let thy flood
Cleanse me — lymph marrow and blood!
The Scourge, the Dagger & the Chain
Purge body, breast & brain!
The Fire Informing! Let the Oil
Balance, assain, assoil.
(Bar in south — address Isis. Suit actions to words.)
Sorrow that eateth up the Soul,
Dam of the Gods, the blue sky's Queen,
This is Thy name. I come. Control
And pass. I know Thee, Lady of Teen[9]
I know Thee, and I pass Thee by;
For more than Thou am I.
(Deosil to bar in N.E. Suit actions to words.)
Asar! who clutches at my throat?
Who pins me down? Who stabs my heart?
I am unfit to pass within
This Pylon of the Hall of Maat.
The Lustral Water! Let thy flood
Cleanse me — lymph marrow and blood!
The Scourge, the Dagger & the Chain
Purge body, breast & brain!
The Fire Informing! Let the Oil
Balance, assain, assoil.
(Bar in East. Address Thoth. Pause in silent contemplation.)
The Lustral Water! Let thy flood
Cleanse me — lymph marrow and blood!
The Scourge, the Dagger & the Chain
Purge body, breast & brain!
The Fire Informing! Let the Oil
Balance, assain, assoil.
(Deosil to bar in S.W. Suit actions to words.)
Asar! who clutches at my throat?
Who pins me down? Who stabs my heart?
I am unfit to pass within
This Pylon of the Hall of Maat.
The Lustral Water! Let thy flood
Cleanse me — lymph marrow and blood!
The Scourge, the Dagger & the Chain
Purge body, breast & brain!
The Fire Informing! Let the Oil
Balance, assain, assoil.
(Bar in West. Address Self-Nature.)
I will not look upon Thee more
For Fatal is Thy Name. Begone!
False Phantom, thou shalt pass before
The frowning forehead of the Sun.
I know Thee and I pass Thee by
For more than Thou am I.
Return to center, at altar. Draw the Hexagram with Wand. Say:
Now witness Ye upon the earth
Spirit and water and red blood.
Witness above, Bright Babe of Birth
Spirit and Father — that are God!
Contemplate Self as the Babe in the Egg of Blue, saying:
For Silence duly is begot
And darkness duly brought to bed,
The Shroud is figured in my thought,
The Inmost Light is on my head.
Making the Sign of the Enterer, declare:
Attack! I eat up the strong lions, I!
Fear is on Seb, on them that dwell therein.
Behold the radiant Vigour of the Lord.
Making the Sign of Silence, say:
Defence! I close the mouth of Sebek, ply
My Fear on Nile, Asar that held not in!
Behold my radiance Peace, ye things abhorred!
Assuming the Sign of Apophis and Typhon, say:
For see, the Gods have loosed mine hands:
Asar unfettered stands!
Hail Asi! Hail Hoor-Apep cries —
Now I the Son of Man arise
And follow — dead where Asar lies!
Lie down in Sign of Hanged Man during the meditation:
I gild my left foot with the light
I gild my Phallus with the light
I gild my right knee with the light
I gild my right foot with the light
I gild my left knee with the light
I gild my Phallus with the light
I gild mine elbows with the light
I gild my navel with the light
I gild my heart wedge with the light
I gild my black throat with the light
I gild my forehead with the light
I gild my Phallus with the light
The threefold star cross-crowned, I rise
Partaker of the Mysteries.[10]
Rise; and invoking Kundalini, declare:
Asar Un-nefer! I am Thine
Waiting Thy glory in the shrine,
Thy bride, thy virgin, ah my Lord!
Smite through the spirit with thy sword!
Asar Un-nefer! rise in me
The chosen catamite of thee
Come! O come now! I wait, I wait
Patient-impatient, slave of Fate
Bought by thy glance. Come now, come now!
Touch and inform this burning brow.
Asar Un-nefer in the shrine
Make Thou me wholly Thine
Upon achieving Union, stand and declare:
I am Asar worthy alone
To sit upon the Double Throne.
Attack is mine, and mine defence:
And these are one. Let us go hence!
For I am master of my Fate,
Wholly initiate.
M....M
The words are spoken duly: The deeds are duly done.
My soul is risen newly to greet the risen sun
Sound these on the bell; only say the ending words ("Hail!" "All hail!"). Make the Four as a square, the Five as the upright Pentagram, the Ten following the manner of the Sephiroth up the Tree of Life.
One! Four! Five! Hail!
One! Four! Five! Ten! All hail!
Give the appropriate Sign after each line, then assume the Sign of Silence.
I give the sign that rends the Veil,
The sign that closes up the Veil.
M....M
[1] The Tuat Pylon
[2] Here I have written out the words of the initials "Z.N.Z.Z."
[3] The Tomb Pylon.
[4] Others have, "...in position of Osiris Slain."
[5] Later typescript has "still in corpse position"
[6] Later reading: "Unless it be that I am Thine"
[7] Note: Ou Me in Greek was A.C.'s motto as 7° = 4□ in the A∴A∴. The later typescript adds here as a note: "Change this to your own motto. Work the scansion correctly."
[8] This line is the refrain, to be spoken after each accusation.
[9] typescript has "Teeu"
[10] The last two lines are not in the manuscript.